Baffle No. 4- I Be Me, You Be You

I do not understand why people talk about things other people like. They frown and make snide comments. They say yuck or ewww are you crazy. It baffles me because if it is something i like to eat or that i like to do, does not have to float your boat. It is my desire not yours. I see things all the time that my friends like to do or enjoy eating. I don't frown or make mean comments or down their desires or interest. You like what you like your into what your into, If i'm down to let you be you then hey how hard is it for you to let me be me. There is variety in this world for a reason. I'm just saying!!

Yes I Am Baffled

Weighed in at weight watchers. I gained  .2 pound. Talk about baffled. I am watching what eat (miss my favorite foods) and i am working out 5 days a week. I really dont use my bonus points alot, So I am being told that i am not eating enough. But most days i am satisfied. This whole weight loss thing has gotten on my last nerves. Im just freakin saying.

baffle N0. 3 Weightloss

So...i know I'm a little behind here. Things were crazy around here for min. So maybe i should say i will fit in as many things that are baffling this month instead of posting everyday. And my daughter came home from college and I let her talk me into braiding her hair. It took me 10hrs. I broke that down into the whole weekend. I really really really didn't want to do her hair. I haven't done braids on anybody in about 4yrs. So i knew my speed would not be what it used to be. But I did it ppl. 10 hrs. Normally would have took me about 5. But any hoooooo.


Ok, todays bafflement is about weight loss. Now see I lost weight about 1 1/2 ago. 35pds. It was by no means easy. but i kept it off just that long. But then I had surgery. I had 6week bed rest and 4 weeks of restriction. I gained all the weight back and 6 more. I swear i am having the hardest, seem like even harder time to get this weight off. I am up and down. Lost 5 then 3 then gain 3 then lost 2 then gain 3..then lost 3.You get the point. So i really tried to step it up a little more and i added using 5 pd weights and i walked the treadmill at the apartment gym in the morning. Then i would walk 3 miles with Leslie Sansone in the afternoon(love her). I did this for 6 days. I was sooo sure i had lost at least 5 pds. So i go into weight watchers and that dangnab scale said i gained 1pd. I was devastated. I worked out even when i was super tired. And  i watched everything i ate. They said i must have gained muscle. Before i knew i said screw muscle i want that number to go down. The guy at the desk blinked a couple of times and said hang in there..we had a couple of seconds of a stare down because even that i didn't want to hear. I think i even shredded some tears as i walked away.
Well I weigh in tomorrow and i really hope to see some weight loss. I need to see a weight loss. I did work out everyday except for sat. and each day i only worked out 1x. I did want to go real hard and i don't want to making working out a chore. I watched what i ate too. I know muscle weighs more than fat. I know it takes time. I know you have to put in the work and the discipline. I know men lose faster than women. I know all this and much much more. What The Heck. I am just baffled at why this time seems harder to lose just 35 freakin pounds. I'm just saying.

Baffle No. 2 Rudeness

Todays bafflement(lol) rude employees. I went to meijer today. A employee was walking with his stock cart. and all of a sudden he decided to cross in front of me. So i said really..is that how you treat your customers. He just looked at me, turned around and kept going. So i said i wonder if i go to the service desk and ask for the store manager i wonder if he would feel how you feel about rude to a customer. I really didn't think he cared. But i went on about my biz. He caught up to me and apologized. I have to admit i did feel better that he thought enough to apologize. I get rude employees all the time reaching over me or dead in front of me or cutting me off all the time. This has happened at kroger, target, even the dollar store. I understand you need to do your job, stock your shelves, replenish your meats, stack your cans but hell don't do it at the expense of being rude to me. I have said things to them before like your excused or pardon you or i didn't know my shopping was getting in your way or even i have said, saying excuse really doesn't hurt. Usually they just ignore me. I have only had a couple employees say sorry or excuse me. Mostly they play like they didn't hear me. But i know they did, they are so close and i am crystal clear on how I feel so i know they heard me. I don't expect much of a reaction because after all they are being rude. But i am pleased when somebody does apologize. People are rude every where but i just think that if you are an employee working in a grocery store or the like they should be much more courteous to customers. I'm just saying!!!

I've Been Away and Baffle No.1

So i have been away for awhile. But I'm back and hope to be consistent.
At some point everybody gets busy and deal with challenges. And yes i have my own.
I have been dealing with an illness. Thank god its not life threatening but it does have
the potential to change my life. But more about that later. Working on getting more comfortable talking about it.

I have been thinking and i am going to try and post everyday for the month of April the things i come across or remember or think about or get confronted with. The things that baffle me and make me think hmmmm. And maybe my sharing will help me and anyone else who has the same thoughts or bafflements. Did i just make up a new word. LOL

So today's bafflement is today i went to the library, they remodeled the bathroom. So its only been open for about 2 weeks. You had to use the bathroom in the kids section of the library. Very beautiful by the way. But what i don't understand is why when ppl use the bathroom they leave urine on the toilet or tissue in the toilet. Soap spilling down the sink from the soap dispenser.Its so easy to just clean up behind yourself. And these are women. Aren't we responsible for the teaching of our children. So if you are nasty here what the heck do you do at home. And what are you teaching your children about cleanliness and respecting others property. After all public bathrooms are a convenience to patrons. If you do your part nice things could stay nice. I'M JUST SAYING!!!