SAME OLD SAME OLD

I am laying here watching young and the restless. The episodes that I missed this week, Thinking how I have been fighting all week how I feel about being single. It has really been bothering me this week. There has got to be more. There has got to be a love out there somewhere for me. I hope he is looking for me as hard as I am looking for him. I have done the web dating on and off for a couple of years. It has not been fun for me. The guys that reply do not fit my listed criteria of what I am looking for. Or they reply from other states. I mean Michigan is a big state. I thinking of trying speed dating.A friend tried it and she said she had a great time. And she met someone. I just don't know if that is for me. There has to be someone in my home state for me.  I am very aware that I am blessed. I am healthy and my girls are well..and my mom is stronger. I am blessed to have some talents and to be good with my hands. I live right...I teach my girls the right way to live. I donate..I volunteer(which I need to get back into that more). I always try to do the right thing, After all I am an example for my daughters. I teach them to give apart of themselves and their time because you don't know how much a good deed, a hello or a smile could make some ones day a little better.

 I did say this has been a difficult week right. And it gets harder after my girls go to bed. Its so quiet. I just don't get it. I just don't understand why I don't have someone to love me. Every day and I go to bed alone and I wake up alone. No one to say good morning or good night..no one asking how was my day..no one to say, I was just thinking about you. no nothing. Now tomorrow I may feel fine..my spirits may get raised. who knows, I may even meet someone, but today, tonight dammit I am sick of being single.

EVERYONE HAS AN IRRESISTIBLE DESIRE TO BE IRRESISTIBLE!!!!